Today and tomorrow will be a sad day for a very good friend of mine and all my prayers go to her and her partner. Right now they need our love and support with what they will be facing soon. My heart breaks for them. She asked me if I would still love her after making this terrible and hard decision and I about fell off my chair and told her YES of course and forever because that's what friends are for. Other people in her life do not approve of her choices that she makes and want her to change!! Why should we change who we are just because someone does not like it???

Why are we so fast to judge people just because of their feeling and beliefs?? To me that is just STUPID and I am thankful that I was not raised like that!!! Yes I am venting and tonight I have that right!! What kills me is that she is absolutely heartbroken over this because this one thing that she does not want to do...God will love you sweetheart and you have a new family of friends that are here for you when you need us and you know who you are -- your secret is safe here!!

Please do not be too hard on yourself and to hell with what others may say or do!!! This was hard for you and I want to tell you that God forgives sins and forgives you!! We love you and will see you soon!!!


ALSO REMEMBER TO LOVE YOURSELF!!!

Yesterday is a double thumbs up my baby has learned to start pulling himself up on a chair or the couch to stand and he is also getting 2 new teeth -- they just grow so fact and to try and remember everything and remember to write in their baby books is a chore all in it's own but I would not change that for the world!!! Sometimes I wish we could turn back time and do some things over again or fix things that went wrong but I know that we can not so to hell with that idea!!!

My parents came up to my house to bed and gave my 4 yr. a (new to us) twin size bed for him... his toddler bed was getting too small as he said... Not really he sleeps in my bed when my hubby is at work through the night... I know bad idea but when the new bed goes up he is going to go to sleep in his bed and earlier not 10 pm anymore!! I hope!!

Mu hubby told me that he doesn't want me to talk to my new friends and family in the chatroom anymore he thinks that it is a bad idea -- SORRY not gonna happen!! I just will not do it when he is home!! I really do not have alot of friends anymore and I get lonely at night to have someone to talk to and so this is my outlet...I have met some very sweet people that I do call my friends and you know who you are and I hope that you feel the same way!! So from Sunday night through Wednesday night I will be able to chat but Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night I will be out--this way he can think that I stop and I can keep my sanity. I know that I should be up front and honest with him but ya know when someone tells me that I can not do something sorry it's gonna happen!!! I don't tell people exactly where I live or give out my phone number so what's the problem?? He is from Mexico and is not use to things like the blogging and other things and just does not understand it all..So that is what I am going to do and there I feel better and now I can go to bed before baby wakes up!!

Good nite to ya all and see ya tomorrow!!!

I have 2 new friends and both are going through their own personal hell as we speak and all I can do for them is to be here and listen and give my love to them..You know who you are and my heart goes out to both of you!!!

I will never understand why SOME men do the things that they do and turn around and say something like" God made me do it" What the hell is that!!! In this blog I will not use my friends names for their privacy, as I would expect from any of my friends. She got hurt bad by this guy and now she needs to make a decision a decision that only she can make...hard choices are all around her right now so here is to you

As to my other new friend, I thank you for your kind words to me and I pray for your situation to get better very soon my prayers are with you and those in bad health. Then tonight I get a phone call from my step mom telling me that my dad has blood in his urine and his poop!!! What the hell and to top it all off I get an e-mail from my mother and she has been having tightness in her chest!! My family is messed up !! Is God trying to test me throughout all of this or what??? I am not by far a religious person but I do believe it just keeps getting harder to want Him with me when all of this stuff is going on.

I have put a few pictures in my gallery and soon I should be able to show you all what my boys look like!!! I can show my 15 yr old but not the rest yet!!

My dear friends ~~ my arms are open to you and ready to hug you if you need one

When talking with people from around the world do you ever wonder if the really understand what it is that you are saying to them... That was a person from around the world and was doing something kinda strange in the chatroom and another person made the comment "If we ignore her maybe she would go away!" That was terrible I thought. So I told the far away person to just take her time and we would respond to her but the other person went in a different direction I guess -- This one was out there in outerspace or something!!!

When will people just try to listen to others and get to know them and not be RUDE!! There's a 4 letter word for ya!! For those that were there they know what I am talking about it was an ongoing joke!!

Tomorrow I go to the doctor for a physical and after that we can schedule my surgery for my partial hysterectomy -NO MORE BABIES!! I would not mind having one more child but with my luck it would be another boy and I want a girl!!! Not to mention, we just can not afford another baby...maybe a dog or cat they eat alot less than growing kids!!!!!

So I will let you all know when the surgery is and all the happy stuff that goes with it...I am afraid to go under the knife again because when you wake up you either are ok or you are very sick to your tummy


Until I talk to all my new friends here PLEASE be good to each other and stay out of trouble!! OR YOU WILL ALL BE GROUND because mommy said so

I can not for the life of me figure out how a child gets off thinking that they can talk to an adult the way that I was talked tonight!!! I swear to God that if I ever meet this person he is going to get his ass kicked!! Sorry about the swearing but I was very upset by this -- At first I defended this person in a nice way and then he attacks me and said that I was "STUPID!" He has not a clue as to who I am or what I am about... to make it worse he then called me a BITCH and a toad!! Go figure and I have to say thank you to my new little family for sticking up for me in there!! You know who you are

If my older 2 boys were to ever talk to me like that it would be the last thing they would ever say!!! I would never talk to an adult like that -- My parents raised me better than that!! I thank God everyday that the way that my children whether they live with me or not know how to respect people older than themselves!!

So I am going to let this go and good a good person and turn the other cheek so to speak and may God understand and forgive me if I yell at this child again!!

I am glad that one of my friends is back on chat and that she is getting healthy again and I hope that things are getting better for her!! And to my NEW friend thank you for the kind words that you said and we shall talk soon!!

Thanks for listen and see ya on the flip side!!