When all the world is looming dark
And things seem not so clear,
When shadows seem to hover 'round
Lord,may I persevere.
When it seems everything's been tried
And there's no way to go,
Just let me keep remembering
Sometimes the journey's slow.
I may just need to stop and rest
Along the path I trod,
A time to try to understand
And have my talk with God.
As I gain new strength to carry on
Without a doubt or fear,
Somehow I know things will be right,
And so, I persevere.

Written by Anne Stortz

I read this and wanted to share it with all of you because what she says is true... in the long run no matter what you do or where you go knowing where you are within you ...You persevere.

Think about it...

Just imagine her with long brown hair, blue eyes and a great sense of humor!!

Do you wonder why men love women who look like this?? I would think that they would like a little more cushion for the pushin' oops did I say that?? Mybad!! I may not look just like that but after my surgery in 15 days or so but whose counting right?? That I will start my weight lose program after I heal!! Don't worry Sis I will wait!! But I promise by my baby's 1st birthday (June 2) I will have lost at least 40 pounds (I hope) !! That's my goal for now and after that I want to lose another 40!! That will put me down to about 140 or less -- never tell anyone your true weight!!

Oh yeah... my head is not THAT big either!! my boobies are bigger than hers though!!!!

I have clothes to put away and kids to feed but all I want to do is to say hi to my friends God I miss you guys!!!

Hubby went to work and I sit here and wonder if he will be able to do MY job when I am in the hospital!! In a way I would like to see him fail so he can get a good idea of what I do everyday!!!!!!!

I know he will be fine and that the house will be messy when I get home but that's life I do not care!! When I get home I will not be doing too much but I will try to help (very little) unless it comes to my boys

What is hubby to do after this...NO sex for him poor guy More sleep for me!! Gotta love that!! He will have to give them their baths and pick up the toys and make the bed and take out the garbage and all the things I normally do!! Mini-vacation anyone!!

Anywhoo... lost my train of thought MORE CAFFIENE PLEASE!!

What would you do???

Why do we always say "Good bye" to things that are not really important but at the same time they are??

I have 18 more days until my surgery and most of the day I have cried!! WHY!! It is just a uterus, right!!?? So then why am I crying?? It is so final like saying "good bye". I know this sounds stupid but for those of you who know me I always wanted a girl sure I have my boys and some day I will have daughters in law BUT it is not the same... Mind you I have adopted one of my blog friends as my daughter and she knows who she is!! I have to say that I am sad that we can't talk right now but someday soon!!

I am very grateful for having two wonderful friends -- Harbour and Adam Warlock -- I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! When the day of the surgery comes (Feb. 13th) a Monday morning I will not be able to be on the computer for a little while I will try to check in when I get back of course!! I do not know what I would do without you two!! Love ya!!

I will see everyone Sonday Night so be there and look for "Sweet_Momma" that is my new name becuz I got tired of people asking me why I was MAD!!

PEACE, LOVE, AND HAPPINESS IS THE BEST!! BUT GREAT FRIENDS ARE BETTER!!

I am not sure what I am going to write but things are going ok so far in this corner of the world...

Both of the boys are doing good and are healthy!! As I write this, my baby is in his crib asleep and my 4 yr. old is asleep in my chair...This moment of peace will not last to long but I am quite happy at the moment .

The date is getting closer for me to have my surgery and I feel like I am ready. However, part of me keeps asking if I am really ready to give up the choice to bear children??!! Being 35 and hubby is 43, he says he done having kids but I still feel confused...Is this hormones talking or am I at the crossroads of confusion?? I know that if I was to get pregnant again it would be a BOY!! Mind you I love my boys but I know that if we had a daughter she would be beautiful!! A very good friend of mine made the statement "Just think you will have 4 daughters-in-law" My propblem...I was a baby girl to spoil!!! Enough about that!!

What you would do if someone read something that you wrote and they were offended by it?? Like a diary or something -- would you stop writing or just tell the person that if they did not like it that they do not need to read it!! Me being the person that I am I would first tell the person that it is how I feel and if they are offended by it that I was sorry...but then again WHY should I apologize about my feelings?? Go Figure!!!

With the date of my surgery getting closer I have been trying to switch from breastmilk to the bottle for the baby just so that hubby can take care of him while I am in the hospital -- I think I am going to ask my Dr. if it would be possible if I could keep my baby with me in the hospital because I am not ready to give up nursing him..I know the answer already but I guess that I need to hear it from him. This however would be a good time for my hubby to see what I go through on a daily basis. The bad part about this though is that he will go to work at 4:30 Sunday night and will have to come home early Monday morning because I have to be at the hospital 6 am on Monday -- He will have the boys and I worry because he will be tired and will not be able to go to sleep until later Monday night...I think I might call his best friend and see if they can take the boys for a few hours just so he can sleep??!! He won't like it but he gets grumpy when he is too tired.

Well that's it for now really can not think of anything else to say hopefully my friends will be in the chatroom tonite I miss everyone!!! Last chance until Sunday Night!!!

I am open for suggestions if I am right or not about calling my hubby's best friend or not!!